Fast forward to college and I started writing fan-fiction on the game Borderlands. There’s a theme here. I love the Borderlands universe, and I wanted to explore parts of the game rarely seen and see what would happen. I actually finished three Borderlands stories, ranging from ten chapters to thirty. I started displining myself into writing every day and punching out chapters every day, but I never edited any of them, somehow convinced they were fine as they were. You don’t need to tell me how dumb I was then. I love editing novels, but back then I didn’t bother for whatever reasons. Fan-fiction, though lost its spark, and I later forgot about writing anything else. In college I also wrote loads of songs, but I stopped once I reached university since I couldn’t ever believe I could make myself a singer-songwriter. Next stop: university, a place I never liked. And what did I find myself doing to replace working? Writing my very first novel, a western. I finished the first draft with 75,000 words and I never edited it either. Why? I didn’t believe I could become an author. It took another two novels to prove to myself that this is what I should be doing, and after I read John Green’s books, I realized that writing young adult fiction is what I was meant to do. Since then, I’ve written two YA novels, all edited as best as I can make them, and chasing the dream to become a published author.
Looking at where I am now, and where I’ve come from, I’m still amazed. No, I’m not a roaring success, or even a whisper, but that doesn’t matter. I’m making moves, I’m moving forward. Short stories are going out to those who want them, and yes, there are loads of rejections, but that’s how it goes. How many times was I rejected for a job until I found one I love? I can’t remember the number. So, if I have to go through that again to chase the dream I’ve always wanted, then I’ll do that. Gladly. I’ll jump in the river with everybody else, and one day we’ll all crawl out to the destination we’ve been searching for. You just can’t give up.
Songs of the Week:
- 'Sad Machine' by Porter Robinson
- 'Alone for a Second' by FadeX
- 'Mercy' by Rimshox
- 'Light of Dawn' by CMA ft. Electus
- 'Black' by Pete Yorn
- 'Methadone' by Rise Against
- 'Jupiter' by The Eden Project
- 'Intro' by The XX